Tuesday, January 12, 2010
BEGININGS
Howdy ya'll....well offically my show season has begun...with my new diet and exercies regime...and I do mean a regime...for a moment I would like to pause and think about what the beginging is all about. To me a begining is first of all very excited, mysterious, and a little scary because you never are sure exactly what to expect. My new rule on this is to have no expectations and take everything one day at a time because truely that is all that you have control over...My other new rule about begingins is to set realistic goals not crazy ones...now it's great to have this idea that I'm going to go to the gym every single day and I'm going to eat perfectly every single moment of that day and then in like a year i'm going to loose a million lbs....reality check that is just unrealic not because it's not a good goal to have just because you really have no idea what is goin to happen one year from now or even one day from now. So my friends baby steps. Wake up and say my goal for the day is to ________________then when you've completeted that goal make a new one. I fell that so many things in life get out of control so quickly you have to treat things like being fit on a minute to minute basis you treat everything else that way so why not this...When I use to deal with everything in my life that was so out of control, my finances, my job or lack there of, my marriage, other people...I mean when everything just hit the fan and still hits the fan I feel the one thing I learned I could deal with and control was me and what I did.... I found the easiest thing for me to control was what I put in my body. I would like to just say to all those out there it's a good place to start... What you put in your body is the one thing you can control on a minute per minute, second per second basis. You can choose to eat or not to eat. to do or not to do. to be or not to be peeps that what it is. So start small then work to big and DO WHAT YOU CAN WHEN YOU CAN WITH WHAT YOU HAVE!!!!!
THE REASON
okay so now that you have the low down on what has happend the past year you can hear the reason why I want to write this blog... reason one it is not easy...it is rough to get where you want to be wether where you want to be is just to loose 10 lbs or 10,000 lbs and reason two it always helps to know someone else knows... I just want to write about all the ups and downs and ins and outs of my fitness journey and I think by writting this blog it not only helps me but my one true hope is that someone, anyone, would read it and say hey that chick did it why can't I...or wowzers that chick went through the same thing I did when I heard that chocolate mint icecream screaming my name from the back of the freezer. I just want to write a real blog about my real journey on what it means to deal with fitness, diets, cheating, love, workouts and somewhere in between all that the reality of life...good or bad I don't know....that is for you to decided... I'm just going to send it out there...so watch out world here I come armed with tip tap happy fingers and the hope your there to read me.
THE SKINNY
Okay so this is the skinny on what is fueling me to write this blog... About a year ago on one very lonesome night I decided I had enough. I was depressed, sad, overweight, and felt I was missing just about everything in my life. In previous months to this moment I had gone through one of the roughest spots in my life. I had no job, miscarried my first potential kiddo, and somewhere along the way felt like I had lost my sense of self. Pity party aside it was pretty aweful but I was really ready to move to something better for me and not just say I was going to do something but actually get it together and do something. Here is the story to how all that happend. The blog within the blog
THE STORY ON ME
For my entire life for as far back as I can remember I have been involved in sports...My Dad started me off playing baseball pretty much right out of the womb...lol...In the process of growing me and guiding me into the young woman I am he gave me a true passion for sports and showed me how to yeild that passion into success...Long story short I competed for many years in a huge variety of things(that kinda happens when your a small town gal like me). Which in turn gave me a passion to build my body, soul, and spirit into someone that was healthy and happy.
When I went to college I got the amazing opporutunity to compete in track and cross country for Wayland Baptist University where I met some of the most amazing people and really learned a lot about fitness and how to really live that life style and it is a life style. After 2 years of copmeteing I ended up breaking my leg and had to transfer to WTAMU where I competed in Cross Country. Then before I knew it my elegibility was up and ever since then have just been in a sink hole going no where but down (fitness wise). I was caught in this quick sand that I couldn't keep from sinking in. My fitness just kept going down hill and until recently haven't really started to pull my self out until I realized how much I was missing from my life by not having that lifestyle.
So here I am trying new things and sheding the old me. I am reinventing myself into the person that I want to be and hoping that I find who that is on this journey that I have set out on. I have one amazing friend that has been a huge insipration in my life and is really pushing me to be more and find more for myself, her name is Jenn. We ran track together at WBU, she was my roomate, best friend, confidant, you name she's it. And to top it all off she simply blows me away because of the amazing, dedicated person she is...Lately, she truley slaped me in the face with some big time motivation and realization. One day she called me up and just blurted it out that she wanted to do Body Building and I was like... wow....She told me how she always had wanted to do it and so she was going to get the ball rolling. Then the next thing I knew I was sitting at her competion in March watching her GET HER GROOVE ON in her first big show. She has always kept up with her body and as I was sitting there watching this person that is so near and dear to my heart walk across that stage putting ACTION to what she said she was going to do and I thought, "how amazing is that... How incredible she set her mind to and she made it happen".I also sat there thinking how far I had fallen away from my old self and for the first time in a long time missing it. Missing ME!
So I tried to get into shape again but I wasn't truly dedicating myself like I should have. I strung myself along a sting of yo-yo dieting, mismatched workouts, quick fixes and rollercoaster fitness knowing the whole time what a BIG MISTAKE it truly was!!! and as I sit here writing these words right now I am vowing NEVER to tred down that road again. However, going through all of those experiences were nessesary to find the right one. Thomas Edison once said, "I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work." and boy have I found those 10,000 ways. Through all those experiences I found a reality about who I am. That reality is this, that I need something with validity and substance, a "true goal" to keep my eye on and ironically my friend jenn is the one that introduced me to that goal. To get into the world of Body Building. I feel that doing something like this is a true test of fitness, dedication, and love not only of athleticism but love for yourself and your health.
I had been contempating what it was I actually wanted to do and honestly I was worried. I didn't know what I could do, or how I wanted to look. Then Jenn came to me and told me about the new NPC bikini division and I knew as soon as it left her lips that ,that was IT (at least a good starting place for me). So I'm diving and I'm putting into action the words that I've spoken. I've been working my booty off in the gym faithfully going everyday doing a workout of cardio and lifting. I have been "clean eating", I threw out all the crap in my house that could keep me from accomplishing my goal, needless to say my hubby is not very happy that there is no longer any junk to eat. He keeps saying things like," where is all the food", when there is a whole frige full of fruits and veggies. It's kinda funny when I think about it(he's such a man). On the clean eating subject I had a really bad experience with eating butter for the first time in a while and we'll just say it wasn't pleasant and don't think butter will be comming back into my diet any time soon.
I know that I'm just a baby starting out in this remarkable new world but I truly have developed an all or nothing attitude to making this happen. I really want this more than I have wanted anything my entire life for the exception of marrying the man of my dreams (which I have done...he's mine). Right now in this moment of my life I want this..and more than just wanting it... I need this with every portion of who I am! I have to make this happen for myself. I need to believe in myself again and feel and breath in and truly love something I am doing. I feel alive and new. Finally I've found something to rekindle my passions for health and fitness. And spark a new fire into at least what is for me the unknown that holds treasures for me to unlock and life for me to live. I'm depending on myself and God to get me through. I've been praying everyday that he gives me the strengh,and the will to make this desire of my heart a reality and have been remembering what was said in 1 Corinthians 6:19-20
"Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body."
So I am making MY BODY a temple BABY...not only to glorify myself and give myself a new start but also to Glorify God in everything I do because I deserve it and more importantly GOD deserves it, making myself into an All NEW ME!!!
THE STORY ON ME
For my entire life for as far back as I can remember I have been involved in sports...My Dad started me off playing baseball pretty much right out of the womb...lol...In the process of growing me and guiding me into the young woman I am he gave me a true passion for sports and showed me how to yeild that passion into success...Long story short I competed for many years in a huge variety of things(that kinda happens when your a small town gal like me). Which in turn gave me a passion to build my body, soul, and spirit into someone that was healthy and happy.
When I went to college I got the amazing opporutunity to compete in track and cross country for Wayland Baptist University where I met some of the most amazing people and really learned a lot about fitness and how to really live that life style and it is a life style. After 2 years of copmeteing I ended up breaking my leg and had to transfer to WTAMU where I competed in Cross Country. Then before I knew it my elegibility was up and ever since then have just been in a sink hole going no where but down (fitness wise). I was caught in this quick sand that I couldn't keep from sinking in. My fitness just kept going down hill and until recently haven't really started to pull my self out until I realized how much I was missing from my life by not having that lifestyle.
So here I am trying new things and sheding the old me. I am reinventing myself into the person that I want to be and hoping that I find who that is on this journey that I have set out on. I have one amazing friend that has been a huge insipration in my life and is really pushing me to be more and find more for myself, her name is Jenn. We ran track together at WBU, she was my roomate, best friend, confidant, you name she's it. And to top it all off she simply blows me away because of the amazing, dedicated person she is...Lately, she truley slaped me in the face with some big time motivation and realization. One day she called me up and just blurted it out that she wanted to do Body Building and I was like... wow....She told me how she always had wanted to do it and so she was going to get the ball rolling. Then the next thing I knew I was sitting at her competion in March watching her GET HER GROOVE ON in her first big show. She has always kept up with her body and as I was sitting there watching this person that is so near and dear to my heart walk across that stage putting ACTION to what she said she was going to do and I thought, "how amazing is that... How incredible she set her mind to and she made it happen".I also sat there thinking how far I had fallen away from my old self and for the first time in a long time missing it. Missing ME!
So I tried to get into shape again but I wasn't truly dedicating myself like I should have. I strung myself along a sting of yo-yo dieting, mismatched workouts, quick fixes and rollercoaster fitness knowing the whole time what a BIG MISTAKE it truly was!!! and as I sit here writing these words right now I am vowing NEVER to tred down that road again. However, going through all of those experiences were nessesary to find the right one. Thomas Edison once said, "I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work." and boy have I found those 10,000 ways. Through all those experiences I found a reality about who I am. That reality is this, that I need something with validity and substance, a "true goal" to keep my eye on and ironically my friend jenn is the one that introduced me to that goal. To get into the world of Body Building. I feel that doing something like this is a true test of fitness, dedication, and love not only of athleticism but love for yourself and your health.
I had been contempating what it was I actually wanted to do and honestly I was worried. I didn't know what I could do, or how I wanted to look. Then Jenn came to me and told me about the new NPC bikini division and I knew as soon as it left her lips that ,that was IT (at least a good starting place for me). So I'm diving and I'm putting into action the words that I've spoken. I've been working my booty off in the gym faithfully going everyday doing a workout of cardio and lifting. I have been "clean eating", I threw out all the crap in my house that could keep me from accomplishing my goal, needless to say my hubby is not very happy that there is no longer any junk to eat. He keeps saying things like," where is all the food", when there is a whole frige full of fruits and veggies. It's kinda funny when I think about it(he's such a man). On the clean eating subject I had a really bad experience with eating butter for the first time in a while and we'll just say it wasn't pleasant and don't think butter will be comming back into my diet any time soon.
I know that I'm just a baby starting out in this remarkable new world but I truly have developed an all or nothing attitude to making this happen. I really want this more than I have wanted anything my entire life for the exception of marrying the man of my dreams (which I have done...he's mine). Right now in this moment of my life I want this..and more than just wanting it... I need this with every portion of who I am! I have to make this happen for myself. I need to believe in myself again and feel and breath in and truly love something I am doing. I feel alive and new. Finally I've found something to rekindle my passions for health and fitness. And spark a new fire into at least what is for me the unknown that holds treasures for me to unlock and life for me to live. I'm depending on myself and God to get me through. I've been praying everyday that he gives me the strengh,and the will to make this desire of my heart a reality and have been remembering what was said in 1 Corinthians 6:19-20
"Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body."
So I am making MY BODY a temple BABY...not only to glorify myself and give myself a new start but also to Glorify God in everything I do because I deserve it and more importantly GOD deserves it, making myself into an All NEW ME!!!
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